So today was the weigh in! If your an author update your weight in the side bar!! If your not, either PM me your weight or post it on here and I'll update it for you!! 400cals today, should be a breeeeeze!! :D Thinspo, not a popular one, but I think she looks great!! Not overly skinny but very slim. . .Rachel Bilson!!xx
Ahhhhh!! Why am I STILL 117???? I don't understand. FUCK I could just punch something I am so annoyed. I'm sticking to liquids for the next few days to try and shift some f-ing weight. What the hell is wrong with me??? Ghost
** hi guys :] it's lovebexs here and i'm 100lbs now. i'm happy it was a weight loss, but still only 2 pounds?! :[ ananomousmia, 5 pounds is awesome! ad don't worry ghost, eventually the stubborn weight will come off. AS LONG AS I'M IN THE DOUBLE DIGITS BY THIS WEEKEND I'LL BE HAPPY (99lbs or less) that should happen.. i might even be 99 by tomorrow, but if not than definitely by thursday!! xx
bumblebee here:
i'm so sad i didn't lose any weight :( though hopefully if i stick with it i will.
todays intake:
apple - 55
oat thing - 51
orange - 40
yoghurt - 75
2 rice cakes and jam - 28+28+20
hot choc - 40
salad - 40
= 377
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(AAAH this website deleted my post. Right. Try again.)
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Today's weigh in: 121lbs (5lbs water weight lost)
Major, major fail.
Today I experienced something of a crisis. I had 400kcals this morning for breakfast and I thought "Right. I feel full, I'm happy with that. That's my day sorted." I WISH. By lunchtime I was starving and then I thought to myself "F*ck this. Why the hell can't I just be normal?" And battled with the idea of recovery (as every bulimic does) and wondered about how much I wanted to be normal: to be happy, carefree about food and general more nonchalant. Did I want my degree? Or did I want to be tired and depressed and not able to revise for my exams? Did I want to make it onto the rowing squad this term? Or did I just want to be not strong enough to train? Did I want to not worry and see my friends, or did I just want to isolate myself?
For that moment I decided that, yes, I wanted to be normal. And so I ate. I didn't binge terribly - no chocolate, nor sweets nor anything like that - but I did have porridge, a banana, a satsuma, cherries, dried fruit and nuts and seeds and then tuna.... so quite a lot. Breakfast clearly does not work for me. Afterwards I instantly regretted it. Why couldn't I have BOTH. Why not skinny AND healthy. Why not THIN. Why am I such a failure????! And then I realised that I was not normal, not in a position to "recover," that bulimia was a monster and would only drive me to binge.
So here I am, asking for you guys' forgiveness. I want to restrict. I want ABC, I want thin. For definite. I regretted that "normal" meal so much :( ABC is such a motivation... I promise my best I'll try to stick to it... I WILL stick to it... I won't fail.
I shall try fasting tomorrow, for me it's much easier than eating a small amount.
Forgive me? I'm sorry for being such a failure. :(
Ergs tonight, let's hope I burn some of those extra calories
PD xXx
I maintained so still 107. i'm sad cos I really wanted to lose some weight but I fasted the 4 days before we started so I'm not altogether surprised.
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Just as an endnote; my intake today:
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45g Fruit and fibre /165
41g Alpen /145
200ml semi-skimmed milk /98
Fruit squash /20................ (430)
[and then the estimated extent of my fail]
2 cherries /10
1 satsuma /35
porridge /98
200ml milk /70
pumpkin seeds /160
sunflower seeds /160
dried berries /160
1x banana /120
1 can tuna /115................ (928)
TOTAL = 1,358 kcals :(
Oh God oh god oh god. I am so very, very fat right now :(
Hellp x
Awww Perfectdoll :( It happens. That voice that tells you you want to be normal, I bet we all get it. It's your body asking for nourishment. But of course it couldn't be that easy could it?
ReplyDeleteAt the end of the day you ate good, nourishing, healthy food, just too much for your ED to handle. Loads better than stuffing your face with crisps and ice cream and mc donalds!
Everyone's here to support you :) ((((hugs))))
xxx Ghost
GHOST:
ReplyDeletesoya milk 190c
choc mini roll (i know, I know) 130c
2 Options hot chocs 80c
Total: Bang on 400!!
Would it be possible to become an author on this so I can post entries
ReplyDeleteand stuff to :)
angelnonmordem:
ReplyDeleteI gained a freakin pound! I weighed at 136 this morning and it's a 400 cal day! I'm gonna stick to the ABC, though - 'cause it's supposed to work. I'm sure I gained a pound because of the 2 day fast prior to the ABC. I actually weighed last night at 137, so I lost a pound from there but GOOD GAWD! Day 4 of the ABC diet and I've gained a pound WTF???
So could you please update my CW to 136?
My plan for the day is:
Cup of Soup: 240 cals
Oatmeal: 160 cals
For exactly 400. And all my water, of course.
Dunno what I'll do about tomorrow's 100 cals but hope that it will kick my butt into some weight loss!
I hope to see some loss by Day 14. I've always been told it takes 14 days for anything to become a habit, or to see results.
I'm still surprised at how easy this is - maybe I restricted more than I thought before ABC. I seem to find myself full & having to make myself eat, even yesterday for the 300 cals...It's a blessing to not be hungry, but I'm still discouraged after gaining a pound.
And I feel thinner. I don't look it, but my jeans fit better, and I feel better. Hmmmm the psychology of structure maybe?
ellaphant:
ReplyDeletewell i found out something ridiculous. You know how you always feel like you're heavier than you actually are? well, I seem to have actually tricked myself into believing I'm a stone heavier than I actually am, every fucking time I look at the scales. Turns out I'm 6 stone 7 lbs (91 lbs) instead of the previously thought 7 stone 7 lbs. I've been convincing myself this for months and ridiculously I've only just found out. So, if an author could update my weight on the side and I'll think of goal weights soon. I feel kinda stupid but I know its just the ED. Thanks x
HANAHOLLYWOOD
ReplyDeleteWeigh in; 131lbs
only one lb down
TODAYS CALORIES
home made vegan bake with vegan sausages
280 calories
still have 120c to go i may have pudding oooh
perfectdoll, just dust yourself off and rejoin us~! We can do it!
ReplyDeleteAnyhow, intake for today (Ugh, the looooongest story ever!) is 391.5 cals.
And I lost two pounds! Forgot to add that~! I am pleased.
ReplyDeletehey its tay
ReplyDeleteheres my meal plan
i have only had 125 though
*1 original rice cake- 35 cals
*1 soup- 70 cals
*1 rice cake- 50 cals
*2 popsicle- 100 cals
*2 rice cakes- 100 cals
*5 jello cups- 25 cals =)
*Veggiese- 25 cals
total cal intake: 405 =)
Thindream123
ReplyDeleteI'm sooo sorry I failed today as well!!! I had 873 cals today ! Went to the gym this morning n burnt 400 cals n theb tried to revise today b ened up binging!!!! I'm such a failure, I cnt do anything right!!!!
heyy thindream join the club ^^ lol.
ReplyDeleteI did 30mins on the rowing ergs this evening followed by a run around the city centre. Lots of core too... I've just eaten loads of seafood... I decided that if I'm eating today I might as well get protein, get muscle and then up my metabolism... :] Off to the gym in half an hour... just doing some reading first :]
Thank you for all your support and well done to everyone on their stats today!!!
Tomorrow is a fast though lol :P
With much thinspiration and general enthusiasm,
PD xxx
Hey guys!! thumbs up to most of you!!
ReplyDeleteINTAKE:
cherries and blueberries: 90
chicken breast: 140
various veg: 100
gravy: 10
grapes: 60
sugar free squash: 4
TOTAL: 404 yaaay :) xx
angelnonmordem:
ReplyDeleteEnd of Day 4:
I only took about half the soup (it was 240 cals but I couldn't take it all) so I'm calling it 120 cals. Then I did have the oatmeal at dinner time, 160 cals. So 280. But I'm definately having some coffee before the night's over so I'll be close - just don't have an appetite. Sick with this cold, I guess.
I'll try to get it closer to 400 before bed.
Then 100 tomorrow - hope I still have no appetite! I have planned a grapefruit (the size of an orange) and a bell pepper.
Ha ha we'll see. Hope to see the weight off soon!
Skim milk - 80
ReplyDeleteLucky Charms - 110
Soy Milk - 50
Kiwi - 45
Yogurt - 100
Pita chips- 30
TOTAL 415 : (
sorry i didnt post yesterday,we got a puppy last night so i couldnt get on!
ReplyDeleteyesterday i had half a lamb grill (120 cals)
some vegetable crumble(about 180 cals)
and some porridge with milk (97 cals)
thats 297 calories.
and i weigh the same but i started my period so hopefully its water!x
that was chubby mummy above.lol.i feel such a failure.cant wait till its the fast day!x
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